Bitch

What a bitchy attitude that cunt got.oh who am i mentioning? An assistant supervisor bitch named nie xun xia.she wants only easy job.just fucking easy.80% of her fucking job i did it for her and am i appreciated? Hell naw! She is a housekeeping department at MDIS residence@stirling. I could care less if anyone read this and let that whore read. Can she even read anyway?since i got here until today i have had it with her.i kept fucking quiet all this time and she drives me like a dog.even a machine knows when to break down bro!she irritate the fuck outta people. Just imagine this..6 fucking partners! I'm the bloody 6th! She drives people like she owns them. It's as if she pays me. Fuck you bitch.queen of fucking acting. Right when she saw the boss came or anyone higher level than her,she kept quiet. This whore is like a fucking cricket. Bitch. Fetch this,fetch that.do this do that.and fucking complain when she was given any hard jobs.urgh! I swear to god one of these days I'm gonna bitch slap the fuck outta her.

Disappearing

And here i was.sitting and moping about shit. Why cant my life be any better?i know..nobody likes me anyway.no one.like why would anyone right?maybe i better off gone. Cut off contact with everybody.i shouldnt really be contacting anyone at all. Not even zack my bff or my boyfriend...boyfriend? Is he really? I know. He hates me and doesnt forgive me yet.he just acted like he does.sometimes it makes me wonder if there is any love between us and does it worth to fight for it anymore? I feel bad enough when he found out about robert. I thought he moved on but it seems all is in vain no?he brings it up. How can i move on and love him the way i was? When i remember what my bff told me and showed me what sam and that cunt ruby is texting? Even asked  her for a photo of her ass and etc..god. The more i talk about this the more I'm in pain.he even recontacted her and told me despite his denial that he said he is bored and i was busy. It hurts so much. Whenever he said work my ass off to get there...what pop into my head is...ruby. He told ruby to come to america and be his maid..all those dirty text he texted her pops into my brain.i never contact robert no more. Under his request. I have pride and honor too. Why cant he understand? Oh pssh..I'm a cunt right? I reallyshould disappear   and cut off all contact with everyone and live in seclusion. I am all alone after all...while I'm at it i should change my number. Sam told his friend rhiannon that he was gonna dump me anyway.it hurts me to the point my soul cease to live.frozen in time where he was a loving and caring man.all those wonderful times together. My soul had died. I really wish i could turn back time.i would do things differently. I tried to commit suicide many times but I'm rescued by my bff. A friend i have no feelings but as a family. It hurts so bad. Does it worth it if i go to america anyway? Will it even change things between us? I dont know. I dont know anymore. We constantly have fights now. And each and every time he said i started it.okay.. Im already hurt losing mika and aida.its not even my fault. Im hurt badly inside. Sadness is..putting a fake smile on your face everyday.i told myself that it will be worth the trouble i'm going through. But every time i do so...i dont succeed. I keep failing. Falling to the ground so bad.why am i suffering so much?i just want him to be here and love me.but...i fail. From what my friend zack told me...i'm his wife spiritually.im happy.really happy.but im also suffering that he is far away.if we aren't meant for each other...i will be the saddest person ever.i wont be in love for as long as i live.i dont see where we are going right now anyway.it seems like something somehow...are meant to separate us. Yes i hate him for leaving back to america.i felt miserable before i step foot in Singapore. And his leaving made his family hates me. Im not 15.i know they hate me. But he denies that his family hates me. He is a FAVORITE in his family. You dont mess with a family favorite. But really...if we are meant to be separated,im

Willing to let him go. After all,im an obstacle in his happiness. I understand. He likes ruby because she is a perfect woman.completely understandable.she can cook,clean,has a steady job,a good woman in his eyes.me? I dont have all that. All i have is my love and loyalty to offer.yes i did screw up one time,im trying my hardest to fix the shit i done.but...its never enough no..?its ok.im willing to back off to let him be happy. Its ok if i suffer...i already have suffer for a long time.i should prepare where im going to live and a new job and a house. Living away from everyone i know. Everyone. I will no longer live in pain and misery. I will no longer be heartbroken.i will live in a new chapter. New storybook of my life. Im just so sick of things...i keep telling myself its fucking alright. Everything is. My life has been nothing but in shambles. My life is a farce. I hate myself so much. I remember feeling this way when Aida...was gone.

When You Love Someone~

Hi Noellites!
I'm so sorry for not writing for quite a while...well...work demands and all that...very tiring indeed.
One must move on no?No work...no money...no money...no honey.I'm just fucking giberish-ing all the time now.Let's get on to the topic shall we?

When you love someone...and you were taught to be loyal...it's difficult ya know...on what point of difficulty ya say?when it comes to distance.yes...distance doesn't matter when two hearts are in love .but it becomes even more difficult when the other 'side' is busy almost all the time and left you fucking lonely.yes...especially when they always have some kind of excuse to make you feel 'toss-aside'.yes...i get that feeling all the time now.but i can't fucking blame him...i mean...yes i do love him...he is my Bf.but he's so far away...i don't really care what he does for a living.even if he's a cosplayer?i don't care!
 Lately he's been making up excuse of all sorts and yes...i do understand that he's busy.because i love him i let him do almost anything he wants.i learned from my lessons of being hurt terribly bad and even had that suicide intent.been there done that.i'm a widow now. for some boys...widows are highly experience bitch.Are we...?and that's not all there is to that.but for my bf?i don't know what am i really to him.

Bored!

Hey Noellites!
how are you guys doing today? i sure hope you're in top condition!well...just like the title says...it's bored. yep...i'm officially bored as fuck.i had no plan whatsoever besides writing in this blog so i wouldn't feel lonely.i haven't been anywhere much today since i'm not working in P hotel..(let's just call it P hotel.) all of this for the sake of my mom who is not well...i love my mom more than anything. yes..she means the world to me. and i'd do anything to protect her even if it cost me my work.yes...things are hard lately but at the moment i'm not ready to talk about it.sometimes i pretend to be asleep but truth is i can't sleep at all.
Some people mistake me for what i do...the fact is...they don't understand what i'm doing.anyway...today my brother offer me to buy his blackberry phone. yes...i want it..but i'm thinking at the moment how the fuck do i pay him back? we had lil discussion and yeah...now i'm the one who can't make up my fucking mind. 

i want his phone due to the fact that it has almost everything i want..but i dunno...maybe i'm being choosy?( choosy bitch!)anyhow....i want to pack my stuff  a bit and i can't delay any longer. i know the fact that going back to P hotel to take my stuff would mark me like a criminal.(so fucking what?)i'm just heading there to take my stuff and if i'm not allowed in i would cause havoc in that fucking hotel.I'm sure 'that' bitch is over the moon hearing i'm no longer work there.i love listening to music. yes i do. but i can't listen to it due to i dun have any device that has bluetooth function.(fucking bluetooth...)my headphone is a bluetooth device that has a pick up the call function too. i couldn't find anyone who wants to buy it so i decided to use it till the end of it's service.anyway...i gotta end it here...till the next time!

Love~
Noelle Jordan

Video making~

Hey Noellites!
I hope you're all fine today? well...recently i saw a lot of videos on youtube and yeah...i gotta admit it...it is fucking awesome! i had this strange urge to suddenly start my own videos. (Can i really do it? am i able to do it?) yeah...they have this amazing transitions,captions,this and that...etc etc etc... but you know...knowing i suck at making videos i decided i should go ahead and try. like hey...why the fuck not?and soon before you know it, i'll be pretty good at it~

My favorite anime at the moment- Hellsing

(though I love Kuroshitsuji~)

My first time trying to make videos!

Hi Noellites! I need your help.do you know what kind of program i could use to edit my videos to make it better? i mean i suck at making videos though. (as you can see) Anyway...if you have any idea on what program i can use or anything please please let me know~ Till the next time!

Love~
Noelle Jordan

The one Dollar tissues!

Hey Noellites!
Guess what? My lil brother came back from work couple of hours ago and he gave me something rather interesting! (for those of you may already have that -meh expression. But for me it is super cute! 

There's only one of these left in the shop where he worked.  The shop itself sell various of items recycled-hey! They're processed to look brand new recycle items you know! My brother knew i was into these kind of things. He gave me the one dollar tissue! 
  Eventually when we went for dinner earlier he showed me and yeah, one of the friendly staff there who knew me as their regular saw the tissue and immediately tore it open and took the tissue out!(lol...i don't even open it yet!) but yeah....he's forgiven since he didn't knew. My brother said it belonged to me and that guy said it's a tissue? i said yeah it is. And yeah...he told us that when money made into a tissue (that you would eventually throw away) he said it's not that very nice. What he said got a point there and my brother look at me and said "yeah, i never actually thought about it," So i told my brother i said before that guy even told me i already knew about the money issue thing.(I can't really explain it in detail-I'll make up for it next time)
 So off we went home -paid the food and everything.
So yeah...i was very very happy when i got it. i wouldn't use it even during emergencies. Nope, not gonna use it at all. I got to go now Noellites and yeah! Those of you who want to chat with me live do leave me a comment and your Skype name, and I'll get back to you! Till next time!

Love~
Noelle Jordan

Live chat with me Noellites!

Hey Noellites! Feeling lonely and need someone to talk to? want to chat with me live or cam with me? check it out in skype! my skype name Strawberry berry! Check in again tomorrow to see what time you'll be able to catch me online in skype! 

Love~
Noelle Jordan

Promoting each other!

Hey my dear Noellites! 

Today i'm helping out someone to promote her business~ Not a fine dining no no...it's the coziest place you'll ever know! It is called Debbie's Place Irish Pub. Located at the heart of Langkawi, it's big shamrock greets you from afar. The owner is the friendliest woman you'll ever know-Debbie herself. With varieties of pub food for you to enjoy while you're drinking it is the perfect place_if you're looking for solidtude. Families are welcome too! For the sport-watching dads, live sports are also showing in big screen.(do check-out what channel they have in store!) With cold pints for you to sip upon.(not to forget they have happy hours too!)

Open from 5pm till late. Here i'll leave you a link in facebook-if you think what i said sounds too good to be true!https://www.facebook.com/debbiesplaceirishpub?ref=hl

So my dear Noellites! What are you waiting for? hurry up and check it out! Till the next one!

Love~
Noelle Jordan.

Hello my dear Noellites! Good day! How are you all feeling today? I hope it is superb! I'm not feeling so super myself though,because i'm still suffering from sore eyes. (it cost me my right eye too) Anyway, keep yourselves in tip top condition and I will write something else later. I got to go due to something important thing come up. Till the next one!

Love~
Noelle Jordan~

it's a small2 woRlD

yess...finally i have moved to a better location home.it's in the town area.phew...it's tiring though.what can i do to take all of this tiredness away?well....nothing.the new house is nice and everything....just one problem...what am i supposed to do in this neighborhood area i just settled in?if you ask me...i don't know.or like the online games language..idk.it's not that i hate this neighborhood area...it's just thahttp://www.google.com.my/imglanding?q=kuah%20langkawi%20pictures&imgurl=http://www.cuti.com.my/hotel/Hotelpages/Kedah/Langkawi_Island/bellavista/map.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.cuti.com.my/hotel/Hotelpages/Kedah/Langkawi_Island/bellavista.htm&h=350&w=300&sz=77&tbnid=76G5yL5BH9v28M:&tbnh=120&tbnw=103&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dkuah%2Blangkawi%2Bpictures&hl=en&usg=__99P9aRymH1bvUv2Xlo7Psh-uIzM=&ei=YOS2S_aWC4jBrAe86JXECg&sa=X&oi=image_result&resnum=2&ct=image&ved=0CAsQ9QEwAQ&start=0i remembered once i worked in a duty free shop(the owner is pretty fat and stingy as well)there are a lot of tourist asking about the differ of price of liquor and cigarettes in the duty free shop.so i simply answered all the necessary question needed.but then came along my former fatty boss.he sat at his chair and read newspaper.in came an Indonesian family tourist asking the boss a lot of question about the duty free differ price(again...i know2)and guess what?he couldn't understand a single word she said!oh well....not my fault.......

t i LIVED here once.back when i was 13-16.about 4-5 years ago?it was a nice memory...oh wait...it's NOT.it's not the area that i hate live in....it's the people.so many bullsh**.come to think of it.just because their parents is police force,they could just simply do as they please,NO WAY.i'm too lazy to talk to them.but a few have seen me moving back here.so f*****g what?do i care?here's a site about this langkawi island.A.K.A DUTY FREE.i repeat people...duty free.so no worries to all those tourist out. there

Backstabbers!

Well hello Noellites! I'm going to talk to you about backstabbers! Yes...the ones that's sweet as sugar but then turn to be the deadliest poison you'll ever know.hurts doesn't it? Annoying to boot, they will always find a way to bring anyone down to their level.

Hi...my name is Noelle Jordan...it has been a while since i last wrote on this very blog which i started years ago...yes...years ago...a lot of things came up so i stop writing for a while and i deeply apologise for everything that happened. Most are personal...well...let's get down to business shall we? If there's something I hate about backstabbers are...they are never...i repeat NEVER honest. They're always be so nice to you in order to accomplish what they want- REVENGE. For some reason they have this strong urge to revenge onto you. I wonder what the hell? Why must revenge so bad? What do i ever done to you to deserve so? Whenever we knew the truth,it's always too late.yeah...always too late! Disgusting people...bunch of nobody...this happened to me dozens of times...but it's just me. Being quiet and all that. I hate revenge because KARMA always does it's job in the end. That's right. Nobody gets away with what they do forever. Be in here and now...or later in the afterlife. There's this one lady whom i have so much of respect for...but she turns out to be 2 faced bitch. Yes...I treated her like a sister but she treat me like a nobody...Gosh! If NOBODY ever told me i wouldn't know! Apparently, my colleague told me all this story that the 2 faced bitch has spread. yeah...nasty ones... And those are the things I never done too! What have I done wrong to her to deserve that treatment afetr all this time i treat her like a sister? I could've make her into an instant enemy and make her lose her job if I want to...I have this certain limit where i'm about to go beyond the border!

She spread numerous rumors about me and make people look at me bad. She couldn't wait till I lose my job in the process too! what a bitch. I hate her to the guts and only god knows how much i hate her. If what people think can come true... i'm sure i ended up in the jail by now! but yeah...that's about it though...I can't be too long now...gotta go sleep and all that. Got to work tomorrow too! Slave away to work and all that. 
Well...I'll just end it here. Till the next one!Much love to my Noellites!

Love~

Noelle Jordan~~

our beloved pets and the abandoned ones~

hola,today i decide to talk bout.....pets.Yup,those lil darlings of ours.but what about the abandoned ones?the one on the streets,meowing,barking begging for food from us humans?hm....now that is something to think about. we pften tend to care only what is belong to us,but we forgot our surroundings. Yes people!pay attention to your surroundings,look around you for a lil while.there are a lot of unfortunate animals that is often forgotten.some-they didn't care at all.i often read in the website or news about abused animals.(usually the stray).what is the pleasure you get out of torturing them?they  couldn't think BUT!!! They CAN FEEL PAIN. Animals (dogs usually) having the best sense of smell,can recognise who is their enemy and who is their friend. If you don't believe me, try it out on your dogs(those who have dogs).i love animals so much that when i heard news about them being tortured,burned,stomp to death etc..etc..etc..i actually cry.i can't stand looking at their torturements.I can't even imagined the pain that they going through.recently,i read at kakimotong dot com bout a cat that still going through even though it being ran overed.it still keep going even though it knew that it's gonna fail.(poor cat...rest in peace buddy)my tear jerked out by the time i finished reading it. i wish i was there to help bury the poor lil thing.gave it a grave for im. every animal deserves to be love,and treat properly just like us humans!if we want to be loved, so does these animals. to the abusers who ran freely in this world....i tell ya something pal-the animal that you abuse,you killed will one day claim it's right in the afterlife. by then it's too late to ask for forgiveness.(i can't say for certain how but it will claim it's life that you took.) My personal opinion about abusers? EVEN BRAINLESS. They can't think straight. and i think that even animals can do better than us if they were given chance.i even found another video about dog abuser. what a fucking brainless guy! http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1912418464215&oid=120923971257699&comments

why must you hit it like that?what does it deserve to be punished so?must you do that to im? how bout if people surround you do the very same to you and tell us how does it feel being abused for no reason?obviously? you did it on anger and didn't think twice do ya? PEOPLE!LET'S FIGHT FOR THESE ANIMALS RIGHTS TOGETHER!

When nobody cares?

*clearing throat* hey,back again.this time it's about when nobody cares.how often do you heard people around you complaining-why does this happen to me?why nobody know what i wanted?why am i alone?why should i live,like anybody would care another life is less?i want to die,i just don't want to live anymore...i say stop.look around you people,there are people who doesn't really care bout what you're doing,or what you're going through.BUT!there are people who WOULD LISTEN and try to guide you as much as they can.i decide to talk bout this cuz i experience it myself with one of my friend.let's just say a good(not really close) friend of mine keep saying he wanted to die,nobody cares,no one loves him etc...etc.etc....once in a while it's ok to be upset and all that.but when you keep mentioning it in a VERY DRUNKEN STATE,lemme repeat myself just to be clear VERY DRUNKEN STATE and keep mentioning it everytime...all the time....people will eventually stop listening to you.i mean,i'm a good listener myself.patient too. but i always try to advice him the best way i can and guide him to be a better person(though i'm not really good myself)and this friend of mine just wouldn't listen and keep saying i'm nagging at him for no reason just like his family.(truth is he asks for my advice.)so what am i supposed to do?just listen to him while not helping him at all??i did.but he REFUSE my help.is there anything i can do,after that when he still ignores my advice and telling me his sad ranting story?he expects people to help him yet in the same time he doesn't need help at all.so my final solution is? just listen to whatever he wants to say.my point here is you can be sad all you want but you have to listen to what others might say.they might even help you if you're lucky!not all people that is bad,not all people that is good either.life has karma.it depends whether you believe it or not.and i must admit it myself...KARMA...IS A BITCH.but why must you hurt yourself?attempt suicide?just because your frustrated?yes,for you people who keeps hurting yourself...listen-there are other who are more unfortunate than us.some parentless,homeless,childless,live in hunger day in day out and some worse than that. the more you hurt yourself...the more other people who love you(though you don't know bout it) are hurt.seriously what is the point you get when you hurt yourself?nothing is ever accomplished that way.please,stop hurting yourself and get up!this is the reality. you have to survive whether you like it or not.everybody is living their life even though they are fallen several times more worse.they got succeeded cuz they WANT TO CHANGE THEIR LIFE,THEY WANT TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.they got up by their own 2 feet and start walking. open your eyes and look for someone who is willing to share or just even listen to what you want to say.

work!work!work!

Talking bout work....hm......there's no such thing as no human are free from it.We all have to work in order to survive.even the young lil' ones are working.anything they can do to survive.eventually work is a must thing. To get money-work. To get food-work.As for Tiny,I myself working.Yes,sometimes it can be a very boring thing. Iresign from my old job-reception. and why? cuz it's very ridiculous. the people,the management,the money...everything. I wish I can mention their names here but for some reason,I do not.And now that i resign i got a job interview for me to go at.(crosses my fingers) wish me luck!Oh! i forgot to mention a few things while i'm at this thing. i'm new here and my name is Tiny Shamrock. I'm a Malaysian myself but i prefers if people around me speaks english as i'm already used to it.(not that I can't speak malay though...) very fluent lah... right now i'm in Johor.and my age??? rahsia lah.....hehehehe...i'm originated from Johor though.am married and happy with my marriage.kids?? expecting...COMING SOON. but not too soon though.since i'm new there are a lot of things i am missing at.so...slowly2....back to talking bout work thing. and so....i'm pretty excited bout this new work thing. rather-different than my previous job.well....it's kinda late now and i will keep up to date! nite2 shamrockians~~~